It's been two
years and ten months since I had open-heart surgery and I still haven't reached
my goal of running one mile up our mountain road. Breathing problems, sleep
apnea and recently diagnosed asthma are
my road blocks this time. It pisses me
off to think my "Rocky Moment" is unattainable. Even walking is a
challenge now. On rare good days I can walk almost two-tenths of a mile,
huffing and puffing the whole way. Sometimes I take my goat along so she can
pull me up the incline. I hate to wimp out and redefine my goal. I had high hopes and I
worked hard, but at this point, rather than throwing in the towel, I'll declare
my "Rocky Moment" after I WALK one mile up the mountain road. Surely
with time and persistent baby steps, I can do it. My regression has been discouraging.
One and a half years ago, after my broken ankle healed, I could walk two and one-quarter miles. I know I can do it again. It is my new promise
to myself. OK, Rocky, look out, I'm a comin', not running, but walking with
determination.
Once again,
Walter Wintle's poem comes to mind.
If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you dare not, you don't,
If you like to win, but you think you can't,
It's almost a "cinch" you won't.
If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world you find
Success begins with a fellow's will;
It's all in the state of mind.
Full many a race is lost
Ere ever a step is run;
And many a coward fails
Ere ever his work's begun.
Think big and your deeds will grow,
Think small and you'll fall behind,
Think that you can and you will;
It's all in the state of mind.
If you think you're outclassed, you are,
You've got to think high to rise,
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man,
But sooner or later, the man who wins,
Is the fellow who thinks he can.
If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you dare not, you don't,
If you like to win, but you think you can't,
It's almost a "cinch" you won't.
If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world you find
Success begins with a fellow's will;
It's all in the state of mind.
Full many a race is lost
Ere ever a step is run;
And many a coward fails
Ere ever his work's begun.
Think big and your deeds will grow,
Think small and you'll fall behind,
Think that you can and you will;
It's all in the state of mind.
If you think you're outclassed, you are,
You've got to think high to rise,
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man,
But sooner or later, the man who wins,
Is the fellow who thinks he can.
Meds: Amiodarone, Cardizem, Vayacog,
Paxil, Pradaxa, Symbicort, Proair, Montelukcast, Ipratropium Bromide,
Fluticasone, Nexium, Claritin, Cpap machine, I-Caps, Vitamins D3 and B-12, Flax seed oil, Multivitamin, Glucosoamine,
Omega-3 Fish Oil, Vitamin C, Phytoestrogen
